Two Directions

Heb 12:2-3

2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

NIV

My hours are spent fighting between two directions. I have never had this much time to think and consider. My mind wonders to some dark places that seem to drain my hope faster than anything. This “dark place” direction is real and a very formidable enemy. He seeks to leave me alone and fearful trying to reason my way out of this hole. The bad thoughts seem to pile on one another and grow just like the cancer that is in my chest. I cannot head down this direction!

The opposite direction is a process of keeping Jesus in every thought, memory and future hope that comes through my mind. I have never had to do this before. In the past I could casually check in with Jesus on my time; now my time is His time. There is great hope in this direction! I suspect that this is a condition that God wanted me to experience long ago. I preached about it and encouraged others to do so but I have never lived it. There is a war in my mind over these two directions.

Lesson- The word “fix” in the text above means consider attentively. Lord let us fix our eyes on Jesus the direction that you have ordained for us before we were formed in the womb.