Bad hair day
Well mama said there would be days like this. After a long
night of night sweats and tossing and turning, I was making my bed this morning
when I noticed hair all over my pillow. Now I know what you’re thinking, what
did you expect? The funny thing about this process is that you actually have
days that are very normal, both physically and emotionally; you almost forget
that you have cancer. I just was not ready for the reminder. The chemo is doing
what it is designed to do; KILL everything! My body is now losing the battle
and for the first time, I feel like I have cancer. I must confess that I am a
bit vane about my body breaking down. I don’t mind the cancer; I just never
wanted to look like I had the disease. I never wanted to walk the streets with
my beautiful girlfriend looking like this. Ok, pity party over.
Today I was reminded once again why I need to kick this
thing in the butt. Max (my eight year old) and were driving in the car and
singing like usual and between songs, he said to me, “Dad please don’t die”. I
have my marching orders. I stood before a judge and promised to love and
provide for this boy and I will not let him down! So, cancer can take my hair,
jack up my stomach, and make me sore all over but I will not be defeated by it;
this battle belongs to God!
Lesson- trials are like a boxing match. I lost this round
today and that’s ok; I will not lose tomorrow. I plan on getting knocked down and
beat up but I have to remember; I’m in a fight and these things are supposed to
happen. What about you? Have you been knocked down? Get up, get right with God
and stop seeking after all the old coping mechanisms that have failed you.
Pastor Greg, thank you for sharing this and all of your other blog posts. It is very encouraging. Hopefully this will encourage you as well: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LODkVkpaVQA
ReplyDeleteThe verse, I guess it is the verse, is silly, but the chorus is fun and your post reminded me of it. I miss you and I have been praying for you!
LOL at Jennifer sharing Tubthumping - great song to share. :)
ReplyDeleteGreg - I am sorry about your hair, but you can rock a shaved head for sure. I'm sure your girlfriend thinks you're awesome no matter what. I'm praying for your fight every day. I love Max's honesty. Gosh you are sharing so much here, and I know that while you fight, others will be encouraged to fight with you and engage in their own battles with more boldness because of you. Love Anna :)
Greg, at first I laughed about your MAMA SAID comment and then when I read further,I felt for you. You could NEVER look BAD. This disease will NOT win. You will kick butt. We made a promise together before the Judge that we would take care of max and we are. You will be a good lookin' bald man for sure. Yes, Tammy has been there from the beginning of this journey and I am sure not lookin' at you like you look like a man with cancer!!! Greg, you are amazing!!!! I have had some night sweats, but they are girl reasons. ha ha! I am grateful for this BLog and for your willingness to share. xo
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