Decisions, Decisions  

Life changing news has a way of putting off all the decisions you were in the process of making moments before you realized your life was upside-down. I was right in the middle of planning my life; spiritual, personal and professional. My life consists of managing time so that time does not manage me. Now every plan, every decision and every commitment is made with cancer on the forefront of my mind. Where will I be six months from now? Will this all be over and behind me? What if the chemo therapy is ineffective? What if they find more cancer? Will I be around to see the completion of the project at work that I am working on? Will I be around long enough to finish teaching the Gospel of John to my flock? Wow, now I’m stressed.

So this is the way I see it; I will make the decisions that need to be made. I do not have tomorrow promised to me. I vow to make no decision before its time even if that non-decision has consequences. Scripture teaches us that every decision starts with God; seek His kingdom first, and all these things will be added on to you. So what the heck does that mean? It means that I need to be seeking God far more than I need to be seeking and answer to my decision. I need to trust the fact that God wants to give me peace before He gives me answers. The order is God first and answers to life decisions second. This is way beyond living “one day at a time”.

Lesson-                Start seeking God and stop trying to control everything.  

Matt 4:4 Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'" NIV    

Physical Condition- Sick and sore. I have a PET scan Thursday to determine if there are additional tumors. Please pray. If you have never prayed then just ask God like you would ask your dad for something. It’s not rocket science.