Waiting
In the words of Tom Petty “The waiting is the hardest part”.
I had the CAT scan last Tuesday and I have been waiting for word on the size of
the tumor in my chest. Waiting causes anxiety in me. I really had no problem
with the fact that I had a growth in me. The issue is the finality of this
test. It is a grade that will determine if the last two and a half months have
been fruitful (worth it) really. I’ve always hated tests; they make us confront
our brutal realities. Most of you that know me are shocked about this reality.
The truth is I love confronting brutal realities; just not in me. I know that
no matter what the results reveal; God is faithful and I will receive what I have
been asking for.
The lesson is for me to learn to live in a state of contentment
despite my circumstances. If God is really for me then what am I stressing
over? Have I connected my wellbeing to results from a test? I wonder if this is
what men of faith have struggled with in the past. I hope I am not alone! What
I am learning is that contentment is a choice and it takes great faith to be
content when the circumstances are daunting.
My heart goes out to all the people today that are waiting
for good news and all the families that are standing (stressed out) waiting for
Hope to arrive. Make no mistake here kids; Hope is on the way! We have called
on God and He will deliver in His way and in His time.
Lord I pray for everyone who reads these words today to be infused
with Hope and Faith. Everyone is waiting for something and hoping for the best
in their life situation. Be their Hope Lord. Remind them today that You are
God, Creator, Healer and Sustainer of all things. Be all of these things for
them today.
Blessings
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